Lost Touch

I guess I've lost touch. Can't remember how I am supposed to feel anymore. All along being so sure, only to completely forget it all. Hope begins to deteriorate from underneath me and honestly, I'm beginning to think its time to give up. The other gives up to, its like every third day minds will change.

First, this is worth it, this is perfect, love is all we need.
Second, I'm unsure, can't make it work, love is faulty enough.
Third, its just not there, too hard, unfair, love gave up so should we.

It's how it goes, day after day the cycle continues. I'm forgetting to smile, to laugh, to breathe. How did I come up so short, I thought that I was in the lead, that along the way we would together be winning. But all around me is happiness and I am caving in. Can't control the way I feel or the things that shift my mood, but I have lost all sanity here and had to find something to keep me alive inside.
Surprise surprise, it always back fires, and friends lose their title as lies begin. Is it possible to trust someone that you know cannot be trusted? No. But here I go, breaking hearts, of hearts I don't even know, although my own is in the mix, its been numb for most the time. And I can't seem to let go. Either way I have my hands tied.

I must not live like this. I cannot.
Pray there are at most two more weeks of sorrow, before bliss kicks back in.