I've been wrong before

Time gave me the chance to move on and I moved quickly. 

Somehow I am back to where I started.

That fluttering in my stomach reminds me that this time is the time.   

   There is no second guessing. 

What do I know anyway? 

I've been guessing all along. 

I thought I had it figured out, I thought I knew, but 

I've been wrong before. 

     How do you make decisions based on happiness when happiness fluctuates?       

You don't.

Why when you are happy does opposition come your way?                     

      Can we ever really contain happiness permanently? 

                                          I'm starting to lose faith because everyday is different,  

              everyday gives me just one more reason to step back with 

one more reason to hang on.             

<3

Yes, it's true, 

I found beauty in my breakdown.

I found happiness.

I found love.

My name is Olivia Shepherd 

and 

I cant wipe this smile off my face.

Saddest I've Ever Been

I couldn't think of a time when I had ever been so sad
and I couldn't think of a place where so many tears had fallen at once

I never had been so numb and never laid so limp and frail
Exhausted and alone, this was the saddest I've ever been

I Dont Move Fast

No, no, this is not NASCAR

I don't move fast

I haven't been driving 

this car all along

I've just been sitting back

relaxed

watching the clouds 

float by

No, no, this is not NASCAR

Peace

This time was the final goodbye 

&

never has closure felt so good.

Peace, love & hair grease

What Keeps Me Up At Night

When there is nothing I can say, 

words just lose meaning 

and I've been thinking, 

what keeps me up at night? 

Tear ducts are spoiled 

and the sun keeps me alive, 

just one more time. 

While locked inside, 

I left, but did not cry. 

Focus broke and time was wasted. 

It seemed every day 

I found something more I hated. 

Every time I start dreaming, 

of things I left 

and hope I'm needing. 

It's different now 

than it was before 

and forgetting makes me think 

of what I can afford. 

To give it up 

is a deed that's done, 

but a lie was kept 

so I still run. 

The Best Found Me

It's true, happiness comes in unknown packages. You will find yourself down, hurt, alone and confused then suddenly out of no where, something wonderful is left at your door. Instantly, you are happier than you ever were before. Thank goodness for that! There is hardly anything better than knowing a day will not go by without laughter, without smiles, without genuine happiness. 

I had the worst before the best found me.

And I've never been so pleased.